Bad, Worse and Worst.

Have you ever done a mistake, and then right after when you realized what you had done, you try to fix it but unfortunately, harder you try, worse it turn out. Have you?

I do, not only once, twice or trice, but so many times. Everything is not succeed. Worse than that, not only things are not going happen as what I wish, but getting worse and worst, it makes me feel sucks.

I always finally end up the 'trial' with huge of frustrated and disappointed, It’s make me totally feel very bad. Full of regrets and feel useless. Every time it was happened, I ask my self ‘why’ again and again but still, until now, I don’t have the perfect answer. And still, until now, i repeated it again and again.. Why? What's wrong with me or what's their fault?

I dunno... Maybe...

Once broken consider sold.

Once go straight no more u-turn.

Maybe, lot of peoples always thinks like that, which is I never happen to understand. Since I am easy to forgive and forget, I always assumed that other people also think the same way as I am. Which is I am wrong. Nobody can read others mind. I should not assume that we are all same. Everybody is totally different. I am me and you are yours. I always do wrong but still I cant learn. How pathetic.

I feel very sad when people looked at me in a bad way. I feel horrible. I don’t like it because I am honestly not like that. I never look at people with evil eyes. I am not a witch. I just try to fix problems. That's it, not more. Not less. I want make things end up better. I want make every problems settle. I want make everything clearer but why, why I always fail?

I still searching for the answers...

Why.. Why.. Why..